going crazy

Wednesday, August 31, 2005

hold me

I started to think about everything that has been going on in the world today. What I realized is that I am really scared of whats out there. so many unbelieveable things have been happening in our nation. I can't believe the types of things people are doing. everyone should be trying to help all these poor people that have lost their homes and familys. I wish there was something more that I could do but I'm just one person, how can I make a difference? at least this time around I can admit that I am scared of whats to come. all I really want is just for someone to hold me and let me know that everything is going to be alright........ Is that possible?

Sunday, August 14, 2005

how can one person......

How is it that one person is able to make such a difference when we need it the most? People come in and out of our lives but what about the ones that really stay with us. what about the people who helped us become what we are now? If they were able to change you so much were you able to help change them for the better in any small way. How are you able to thank someone for making such a difference.

If your wondering why I'm asking all these questions its because I've noticed I've changed A LOT. I have a lot of people to thank for it but I just dont know how to do it.I'm hoping that I have been able to help them just as much as they have helped me. I used to feel like I was going in a direction that I didn't really want for myself but for some reason the right people came into my life at exactly the right time. I'm so greatful that I didn't end up doing the types of things I was considering doing. I never noticed how horrible things go for people just because of the choices they make and I know now that if I would of done the same stuff I wouldn't be as happy as I am right now. I love you all so much and you all have helped me in a way. I wish I could thank you a better way but I don't know how. Thanks for being there for me and not giving up on me when I needed you the most................