going crazy

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

leaving canada

today is the day that I leave canada and head back home. in ways it is extremely sad and in others its kind of a happy thing. even though problems have happened back home and my grandpa past away I still wouldn't give up those things. I noticed that they really mean a lot to me because they are my problems to learn from. This trip has given me the time I needed to realize that. Its been wonderful to see everyone here because I love and miss the people here when I dont see them. I get to go home and miss them just as much again and even my new friends I will miss but I noticed that I miss my other friends at home so much. I dont know what I am going to do when high school is over and everyone goes their own ways. I know that some of my friends are already doing it but next year is the final thing for me and all my friends my age. its going to be crazy to not see them almost every day.
on this trip I am sad to say that we didn't do anything crazy... like jump into random peoples pools or even peoples pools that we know. I am amazed by how much the people here do in school. I have never seen so much work put on teenagers all at the same time. its extremely crazy and at this point in time I really hate it. I hate it because it took away from more play time with everyone but I guess that is part of life. you win some and you lose some. I am so happy that I had the chance to see everyone though because that is something that really meant a lot to me. i am not sure if i will be coming back again and that is so sad to think about but all I can do is be happy and greatful for the time that I have spent here. Life is crazy and crazy things happen but its good to try new and different things. If this post doesn't make much sense I am sorry because I am writing this at 4:30 in the morning and I am just a little bit tired. To anyone from canada that reads this post and saw me thank you so much for taking the time to do that because it was so wonderful to see you again or meet you for the first time. to anyone that I wasn't able to see while i was here I am really sad that I didn't get the chance and hopefully some day I will have the chance again. I love everyone so much from canada, utah, and we can't forget cali. (shmoo I love you) I have had the chance to miss everyone and no matter what I guess I am always going to miss something but that isn't such a bad thing after all. well I think I have blabbed on enough so I end this post right ...........about................................................NOW.