going crazy

Wednesday, July 27, 2005


I swear I feel so alone most of the time even when I'm with people. I've noticed that I am not someone people take serious and I wonder what the crap I do wrong. Is it just because I am blonde or maybe just because I don't pick up on things as fast as other people. I don't understand it and I have no idea on how to fix it. I swear I will never be trusted with something unless everyone else has been asked and wasn't able to get the job done. What really sucks though is if you know you could do an amazing job but no one will give you the time of day to even try. No one is ever going to take me serious in order for me to have the chance. I believe in myself but I guess others have to believe in me too. I feel so out of the loop, kind of like reject. is that possible why no one will take me serious is because i'm a reject?

Sunday, July 17, 2005

Please do this

Hey everyone I was wondering if you could do me a BIG favor. I want everyone to make a little list of small things that they would like to do before the summer is over. I want to see how many things we can get done before school starts. I dont really care what you put just please put what you want or want to do. I love you all and I hope that this will work out the way I want it to.

Saturday, July 16, 2005


I think it would be awesome to have a fight night. I mean how often do you really get to see a real fight happen without someone breaking it up before it even begins to get good? I would honestly like to know how many people think that is would be a cool thing to have a fight night sometime? I say we do it..............